It’s easier to sabotage yourself than to put yourself out there and risk failure and rejection.

Sorry I’m not perfect, I’m not even close. When I see perfection, I become engrossed. I am large and unsightly, unpleasant and cruel, not someone of which men would find a ‘jewel.’ I bleed to feel better, it never works, If I’m being honest it just makes matters worse. I starve to feel perfect, but I never will be, I’m not thin, not bony, I’m just fat, that’s me. So sorry to dissapoint, but I’m not what you think, you’ll watch me destroy myself, you’ll watch me shrink. You’ll see me broken, alone and weak, I’ll look in your eyes but never again will I speak.

Stupid, Foolish and Immature Mistakes.

Anorexia is a disease. It is not something you ‘do’ or something you ‘use’ it is a serious mental ilness that can affect both men and women, it can develop in anyone and at any age; It doesn’t only affect young girls. Many people on tumblr struggle with Anorexia, Bulimia, BED or Ednos ( I am aware there are others, but EDNOS is normally different for each individual) Many girls, including people i know, have decided that it is a good idea to restrict, diet, starve and harm themselves, purely for the fact that it has ‘worked’ for other people.

This, my dearest followers, Is a very obvious example of ignorance. They don’t seem to be able to understand how much these things destroy lives, families and friendships, even when they’re informed of there own stupidity, they seem not able to confront it. They ignore what others have advised them to do and carry on with foolish techniques to lose weight.. I am not talking about people who have been starving for months and can not control it (eg, people who actually have an ED) I am talking about people who say ‘I am only eating dinner, I want to be skinny’

These are the people who deserve a slap and a wake up call. Most of the girls doing it are just craving attention. It is such a stupid thing to do, really. I can not comprehend just how utterly ridiculous I find it all. I wish so badly that they’d listen to me, listen to my warnings. But they don’t and they won’t, it upsets me to the point where I blame myself as I strongly feel it is my own fault that they’re doing this to themselves. I feel so responsible, but at the same time extremely resentful. I only with for them to see thier own beauty, but they never do.

The world is a cruel and harsh place, I find it hard to see the good, hard to see the beauty. But when I look at all you wonderful girls, I realise that it’s right in front of me.
Please realise, I am not telling you that being fat is wonderful, I am not telling you being skinny is wonderful. I am telling you, you are beautiful, you are already at a completely healthy weight. Don’t jeapordise that, please?

I love you all<3